Pseudo Happiness
Yes, there's even such thing as pseudo happiness. It deceives you whenever you have a chance to meet it and establish contact with it. It wears a different disguise every time you meet and – naturally – you never recognize it. However, it's eagerly after you. Not because you did something wrong to it but because it's most likely bored and wants to have fun at your expense.
Pseudo happiness brings you nothing but extra problems and sometimes even nervous breakdowns. While it sits in your leather armchair, smokes your cigars enjoys watching your favourite evening show (evening news that is!), satisfyingly stroking its beer belly after gobbling your favourite breakfast of fragrant bacon and eggs, all you are able to do is tear yourself apart after the impudent visit of your pseudo friend.
To put the whole situation simply, pseudo happiness brings nothing but confusion to your life. It makes you suffer endless internal conflicts within your personality, and hardly ever contributes to your feeling satisfied at least with a few pseudo happy moments it may incidentally grant you.
Pseudo happiness suggests situations when you seem to have found what you've been looking for but you still aren't feeling satisfied. You crave for peace of mind but you end up being totally restless instead. Why? Because what you've accomplished isn't true happiness. It's just some sort of standard happiness pattern which you have framed your life into without realizing that in your individual case this pattern simply doesn't fit.
Pseudo Happiness arrives, for instance, when you do not want to leave your job only because it brings you a lot of money (but has never brought you a tiny bit of satisfaction or free time for your family or yourself).
Be sure that pseudo happiness is standing at your door when you plan to marry a person you don't love. You know that you respect him, that he will worship you till the end of your days, be the wall you can build on, be there when you're old, to have and to hold bla bla bla but you know for sure you will never be able to treat him with passion or unfriendly love. If you do make this mistake without thinking the whole issue over and over and over again, your pseudo happiness will soon bring its friend called Endless Suffering.
There are moments, however, when you seem to have everything you need to be happy i.e. a lot of money, beautiful love story, some fame and power, you enjoy your youth and good health. However, you have a feeling that something is missing. You don't even feel earthily happy let alone have the typical in these situations seventh-heaven feeling! What does it mean? The first guess is that you just look for happiness in the wrong places (= wrong things), try changing your perspective on the whole issue if you do.
The second possible reason why you're nervous about your pseudo (in your view) happiness is that you are just so bored and tired with your good life that you need a big quake (read as: bang on your head) in order you to regain your sense of reality. Is it ever possible to get sick from being completely happy? These things happen too, ya know. In case thinking about how lucky and happy you are in the background of hungry Cambodian kids doesn't change your pseudo happy situation, the only way out for you is moving to Africa to make sure of it!